I wake up every morning and decide what today will look like whether unconscious or consciously. I am a multitude of energies all colliding out of the dreams into reality to decide which emotion and embodiment I will hold onto today - or let go of...
I take a look in the mirror. Am I worthy, enough, interesting, stable, and attentive? Am I enough for the day; am I enough for the self? Have I asked myself whether I will feed myself with love this day with greens, beans and things… or will I bring myself into a salty sugar high as Engineer Mountain, one I have engineered. Is yoga my practice, the sunshine, the sweaty outdoors, a quiet walk between the aspen? Did I hear the sound of the river today? Did I acknowledge myself for being kind to the homeless man I greeted - To my homeless soul walking, waking, deciding everyday how I will canvas my dreams into reality. My body is the physical expression of how I choose to wake up every day. I am the author after all. I ask myself, am I on the right path. Right meaning alignment. Right meaning inspiration. Right meaning love. Am I in right relationship.
Relationships are the treasure maps. I have been "searching for a heart of gold." Being in relationship takes work. The work only exists in relationship to self, and to others. The work, being this life. They joy, the sorrows, a search into wholeness - collective consciousness. How we impact ourselves and others is in right relationship. If I am solo and operate like a lone wolf, fiercely independent, self-seeking or distrusting I create isolation. I create isolation from the rest of humanity. It's like cutting the self-off of the adventure map, a stop in time. Relationships are treasure maps. Along the way I learned how to be broken, how to heal, who I am, who you are and which treasure I am seeking.
Isn't it true that being in a relationship with another human means you will get triggered somehow? I have been learning how being triggered by an event can actually be an opportunity to heal something within the self. If I am triggered by a person who I feel I can't trust, then I can go back on my map and find at what point in time I may have experienced a loss of freedom, a trauma or a loss of relationship, a loss of integrity in myself or another. Only when we have the awareness can we start to choose something different, inspired action. If I choose to separate myself from society, from my community - if I isolate from anything that could offer me treasure I surely do take away the joys, sorrows and willingness to work from life. I've already turned my kaleidoscope off before anyone can move it into confusion or the possibility of beauty. Our community has lost treasures all over the map. I call these treasures people. They are distant, in rural lands, in a one-man band deep in the mountains, down in the desert. How did we get here?
The 10 lives in La Plata County buried in the ground, lost suicide treasures. Who will you search for today? This is a two way stream, a collective team. How will you wake up, in what color or behind what mask. Will you take it off to be seen, so someone can find you? And for those who think this doesn't apply to you; who didn't go looking for you?
If we want to live in a connected world where everyone gets a piece of the pie, first we must say something like, Hi.
Hi, how are you? Nah.... Good. Ya good and you. Good. Ok good. Good. Great. Good.
Dig a little deeper for the treasures of connection. It might sound something like: Hi, what is your greatest joy right now? Can I support you somehow today? I feel inspired to buy your coffee today - I know we just met.
So Society is a slippery slope of norms; what is normal? Is it normal, these elected prescriptive insistent medications to put a person to bed? Is it normal to ignore. To ignore the signs. The signs that clearly said, I have no food. The signs all around us that say, something isn't normal in the world.
You get to decide what is normal to you. Right relationship with the self creates right relationship to find those treasures on the map. Once we uncover all the world's hidden treasures I hope the one you find most valuable is how you afford to be in the world today. When you look in the mirror what I hope you see is yourself. The authentic self that knows what contribution and gift you have to offer to the world. That you know just how precious your life is, and how no one can ever be created again just like you, in the same way, in the exact same formation as you are in those 32.7 trillion cells.
So I ask you, what do you choose today to look like? How did you inspire hope that rises up from within, to reach out like an apple tree, to spring forth your fruits so abundant the lonely hearts come out of the woodwork for a piece of that apple pie. Hi, who do you see in the mirror today?
Check out this link our community 16 year old high-school student, poet-extraordinaire created for the, "Be Heard Performance Poetry Jam" this year...Amy Leonard, "Don't Shoot the Messenger"
Please, Be Heard. Bring your voice to the Suicide Prevention Community Summit from 5-8 p.m. Thurs., May 11, at Miller Middle School. Suicide Summit 5-11-17
